Monday, 8 December 2014
Blogmas with DOASAHM - Day 8
Hmmmmmmm this is a hard one for me. I normally have a wishlist in my mind for occasions where I am fortunate to be receiving gifts - like birthday, anniversary, Christmas etc. When I'm asked for hints by people who will be buying gifts I'll ask for one of them.
Then there's the wish list that I secretly have in my mind that I add things to and hope to one day obtain myself, budget allowing.
This year I find myself with no wish list for Christmas. I have been praying, hoping, wishing that we could move for so long and earlier this year praying and for speaking that we would spend Christmas in a new Home..... Now we have our new home I am in awe that we actually will be spending Christmas here.
The closer Christmas comes, the more I feel a pang of pain of the memories of last year's Christmas at the hospital.
After plans and ideas, present shopping and wishlists I was faced with seeing my youngest gasp for breath and fight the very oxygen mask that was trying to save him.
I wish I could focus on the miracle of life, that he recovered, that a story that could have had such a different ending had a wonderful testimony of God's Grace. My mind however seems stuck on the images and memories of sickness, fear, and all things scary.
This year I haven't got the same buzz I used to about Christmas but I want to shake it off and celebrate life and the reason for Christmas.
As trite or cliché as it sounds, and I almost cringe typing, my wish list for Christmas has only one item and that is for all my boys and hubby, and my family and friends to be well and happy for Christmas.
hmmmmmm reading back, I sound like a "Debbie Downer" I hope I didn't kill anyone's buzz xxx